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Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Blue looks for Colon Cancer awareness (please read!!)!

This is a post I didn't think I'd ever be writing.  I did a couple of looks this past week for Colon Cancer awareness.  I knew the color for Breast Cancer awareness was pink but I hadn't been sure about the color for Colon Cancer and was happy to find out it was blue and not the brown that my goofy husband said haha.  So here are the looks I did!



What I used:
TFSI
NYX JEP "Milk"
MAC Mineralized shadow "Sea & Sky" (Sky on lid)
88 palette for black and navy blue
theBalm "Promiscuous Pearl" shadow as highlight
L'oreal Lineur Intense Carbon Black Liquid Liner
L'oreal Voluminous Carbon Black mascara



What I used:
Lime Crime Eyeshadow Helper
Glamour Doll Eye's "Mingles" shadow applied wet on lid and then blended up dry
MAC "Blanc Type" shadow
Glamour Doll Eye's "Ancestry" as highlight
MAC Blacktrack fluidline
L'oreal Voluminous Carbon Black mascara (sorry about the clumpy lashes!!)

So why choose to do a look for colon cancer?  Well this answer is very personal but I want you guys to know what's going on.  Wednesday I went to the doctor because I'd been having stomach issues.  I thought it was something not super serious, maybe Crohn's disease or Ulcerative Colitis.  I was so nervous to go but when I woke up from my colonoscopy (which I had been dreading and never EVER intended to tell anyone about) my doctor came in with my husband and said, "I don't have good news for you.  It looks like cancer."

Um... what???  I'm 26 years old, I'm healthy, strong, I have no family history of cancer, I don't even like red meat.  I have zero factors that they say might put you at a higher risk for colon cancer.  So on Friday I met with a surgeon who told me the biopsy came back and that I do have stage 4 colon cancer, which has spread to my liver.  The plan is for me to go into surgery tomorrow to remove the mass from my colon and implant a port so I can start chemotherapy.  

So in a week my life has flipped a little bit.  I'm definitely staying positive and, though I know it's so unusual for someone who's so young to get colon cancer, I also know that my age is going to help me get through this easier.  And I have the best, most amazing support system.  My husband is incredible and my parents have come down from New York to stay with me for a little bit, with other family and friends wanting to come see me and help me out, but not wanting to overwhelm me.  I have amazing people in my life who have been calling me and texting me and emailing me to see what's going on and telling me that they're praying for me and thinking of me.

I don't want people feeling bad for me.  This sucks and there's no getting around that.  But I'm glad that it's happening to me and not to someone else, I know I'm strong enough to make it through everything.

I learned an important lesson through what's happened so far.  I knew something was wrong in my body (granted, I didn't think it was this) but I didn't listen.  I let this go for about a year before I was brave enough to tell someone that something was wrong.  I was too embarrassed to tell people.  So please please please, if you know that something isn't right, go to the doctor.  Even if you have none of the factors for having a serious illness, that doesn't mean you don't have it.  I learned that the hard way.

Tomorrow is my surgery (which I'm am not allowed to wear makeup for!!) so I'm going to be MIA for a little bit but I'll be back!  And I have every intention on continuing my blogging, even through chemo.  I have decided that one I talk with the oncologist, that if there's a good chance I'll lose my hair, that I'm going to cut it off and donate what I can.  I can't see the sense in letting perfectly good hair wash down the drain, especially when someone else could use it.  So any ideas for short pixie haircuts are more then welcomed!!  

Just if you all could keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers, I know more prayers can only help! Thank you all for your support, it means so so so much to me!!  

83 comments:

  1. We love you Sonja. My thoughts and prayers are with you and you WILL pull through this!!! I have no doubt. Stay strong lady.

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  2. We love you and you are in our daily prayers!! I WILL see you when you are better!

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  3. Love you so much Sonja. You have been in my thoughts everyday, and I wish the best of luck. <3

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  4. I think you are the strongest woman I have ever been blessed to know. You have been through so much this past year and are brave enough to share it with your followers. Even though I don't pray, I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts. You are an amazing, strong woman and you will pull through this. Good luck Sonja!

    Love, Kassie

    P.s. I really love your makeup :) Especially the second one, I got to get my hands on Mingles xD

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  5. These are gorgeous looks and prayers going your way hun!

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  6. I'm so sorry. I've been a lurker but enjoyed reading your blog a lot, so sorry to come out of the woodwork on such a sad note. I'm sure you'll make it through this. Good luck!

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  7. Love you girl! You are a strong woman and will pull through this! You are in my thoughts, and if you need anything or need someone to talk to you know where to find me.

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  8. Wow. Sonja I am so shocked hearing this how crazy it is your life can change so much in a week. I love your positive attitude and that is all you need to get through this. Wishing you nothing but the best and I will be thinking of you tomorrow!! <3

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  9. I'll be lifting you in my prayers. God will be with you along the way :)

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  10. I am so sorry Sonja, you are one of my favourite bloggers and a strong incredible woman who will get through this! You are amazing simply to share this with your followers and you will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. This is only going to make you stronger girl x

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  11. OMG I am praying for you. I was diagnosed with Lupus, Rheumatoid arthritis, and other illnesses when I was 17, so while I can't fully understand what you are and will be going through, I can sympathize. You have my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you and your family all the best!

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  12. Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry Sonja. I've followed your blog from the very beginning, and you're one of my absolute favorites! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family <3

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  13. Best of luck to you in surgery and you'll be in my prayers! Stay strong beautiful <3

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  14. You will absolutely get through this and be an inspiration for many others. Thank you for sharing with us, keep us informed!

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  15. I'm so sorry to hear what happing to you hun....I like your attitude about it I think it the best way of thinking!!You have to be strong and fight!! I know your going to be okay..I will have you in my prayers!

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  16. I admire your positive attitude toward the whole thing. Sending good vibes to you and good luck tomorrow!

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  17. Oh Sonja, my thoughts and prayers are going to be with you tomorrow. Stay strong!

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  18. Sonja, I'm so sorry to hear this is happening to someone as wonderful as you. You were one of my first sub for sub, and i've been following you as you grew into this huge success. I admire your strength, positivity and energy. My prayers are with you for your surgery tomorrow, and even though I don't know you in person, know that there is love coming your way from "strangers". <3 Mary

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  19. WOW. I'm so glad I read this post. I too, have some health issues that have come up and it makes me realize, even though I'm young(22) anyone can get seriusly sick. I hope your surgery goes well and you recover quickly. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. Keep your head up girl. You got this.

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  20. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. Hope all goes well for you tomorrow.

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  21. I know you'll make it through this! I'll keep you in my prayers <3 I hope you have a safe and easy surgery.

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  22. Sonja my thoughts and prayers are with you! You are a very strong woman and I know you will get through this. I wish there was more I could do. Just know we are here praying!

    Love Jacki

    I like both looks but the 1st is my favorite... :)

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  23. Sonja, I am SO sorry to hear this... I was seriously in tears from the minute I read what the problem was. You are truly inspirational and I wish you the best. You seem like a very strong, positive person and I sure hope you kick this cancer's ass, which I don't doubt you will. You and your family are in my thoughts and I hope tomorrow goes really well. <3

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  24. Thank you for sharing this. My prayers are with you and I admire you for being so strong. This has been a wake up call for me. I have had stomach issues since a young age, so I always shrug them off thinking it must be nothing if I am still here all these years later. But I have never been checked out, and for all I know this may be putting me at risk. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share this with us.

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  25. Sonja you have always had a place in my heart. I'll be praying for you and your family.
    Melanie Bowman

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  26. I admire your strength and positive attitude. You have prayers being lifted up from Texas! May His loving kindness provide you strength and courage as you go through this process. May He surround you with skilled Drs and compassionate medical staff.
    Hope everything goes well tomorrow. Please keep us posted!

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  27. All I can say is, while I was "Oooohing" and "Aaahhhing" over your pics, I continued to scroll and read and my jaw dropped! Honey, you have such a great attitude going into this, don't lose it. Come back and read this whenever you might feel down. It's gonna be rough, but you seem to be a "balls out" kinda gal, keep that momentum going. You're in our prayers. Hope all goes well with surgery. Keep us posted when you can. <3

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  28. Oh yay! And I just got to be number 701, :) Chin up Mama!

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  29. Wow Sonja! Thats crazy!! Youre 26 years old! Im glad you listened to your body and went to the doctor. I wish you a quick and speedy recovery from surgery. You have a lot of people that'll be waiting for your return to health and of course blogging! Big big ((hugs)) !!!!! We'll all have you and your family in our prayers and thoughts. Take as much time as tou need to start feeling better, we'll be waiting for you when you get back, Doll! ♥ ♥ ♥

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  30. You are an amazing person and hearing the strength in your voice about the whole ordeal is going to help you through this greatly. I have no doubt that the voice of colon cancer survivors is about to gain a STRONG, STRONG advocate. I will be thinking about you and your family and sending lots of positive energy. We will all be waiting for you to recover and I have no doubt you will come through this MORE beautiful than ever.

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  31. Many hugs and kisses to you, Sonja. You are indeed a strong individual for taking this so well. I had a cancer scare a few weeks ago and I didn't take it well at all. I had my biopsy done today and the chances of cancer are still slim, but it was still initially very very scary. Go kick cancer in the balls and come back strong :)

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  32. Prayers for you Sonja. Former co-worker Carol from Albany, NY

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  33. Sonja I'm praying for you and your family at this time.

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  34. I just recently started following you but my heart goes out to you right now. Your such a strong beautiful woman and you will pull through just fine. <3 Keep your head up, pretty lady!

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  35. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to reading your blog as you go through this. I know that people posting encouraging comments on my blog for my dad really lifted his spirits. I hope to repay that favor and lift you up as well. Take care and healing prayers are headed to you. You are a strong woman and so positive.

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  36. I am a fairly new reader to your blog but I have to say you are in my thoughts and prayers! I know that this is an incredibly delicate time for you and your family, but know that attitude is 99% of survival when it comes to cancer. I am an RN and specialized in digestive medicine for a long time and worked with many people with all kinds of digestive disorders and diseases, including varying stages of colon CA. I know this may be forward, but if you need ANY nursey/medical advice please please please feel free to contact me. My email is andreaj1215@gmail.com I'd even be happy to share my phone # with you if you need it. You are so strong and so brave for sharing your story with the world and even though I don't know you personally I am so so proud of you. Please don't hestitate to contact me if you need ANYTHING, seriously anything at all. The more people you have in your corner the better. I'll definitely continue to be a loyal follower of your blog as I have from the first day I saw it!

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  37. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts! You're such a strong and wonderful woman, I know your amazing attitude and strength of will will help you through this whole ordeal. Kick that cancer's butt!

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  38. I am so sorry to hear this has happened to you! :( You're so strong and beautiful, and its amazing how you share this with all of your followers:) I will be thinking of you all the time! Good luck <3

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  39. oh darling this is so so sad to hear.... you are such a strong person you will be ok... and i'm so glad you have such a great support system... don't forget about us!!
    I've always been a bit scared about certain things that i have been putting off going to the doctors.. it may be nothing but you never know and with your there is something, so your so lucky that you got the courage to go and get it checked, if you didn't then who knows what would have happened. your in my thoughts xxx

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  40. Hi Sonja,
    I do not even know you and was so touched by your strength, courage and positive attitute as you face this ordeal. Just remember, "All things are possible through Christ" and with Him, your strong positive attitude, and prayers, you will be fine. Hand it over to God and believe.
    My prayers are with you.

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  41. I hope all goes well with your surgery Sonja.You're so strong and so loving and I know you have exactly the right people around you. Your attitude is brilliant and all us internet folk from all over the world will be praying for you and your lovely family. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed! And your pixie look will rock, I can tell xxx

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  42. Sonja you are such a great mother and wife, beautiful, amazingly talented, and, most important, strong. You will get through this and we are all praying for you. And yes, you would look awesome with a pixie cut!! I wish I was there to do it for you!! Love you!!!

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  43. Wow Sonja, you are one brave woman! If I were in your shoes I doubt I would be thinking like you are right now, I'd be an utter mess. I wish you the very best for tomorrow and throughout your treatment. I think the hair idea is fantastic, you will make someone very happy with your lovely hair and a pixie cut will look great on you, especially with your edgy, creative makeup style. Stay strong and positive, you can beat this! xx

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  44. You are a very brave person to be sharing this. You show your strength and encourage other women. You'll get through this and we'll all be here waiting for more of your wonderful makeup looks. I'm not a person that prays, but you and your family will be in my thoughts.

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  45. You are so strong! you'll get through this, you're amazing!

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  46. My thoughts are with you and your family.. Stay strong and just remember your family will be there no matter what <3

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  47. I am so sorry to hear the news. When I was 18 I was having a lot of stomach problems that I also let go on for about a year because I was too scared and embarrassed to tell anyone about. Finally after a year I told my mom and she took me in for a colonoscopy. It turned out that I have ulcerative colitis so I have to be on medication for the rest of my life. Thank you for doing this post to bring awareness to this disease and colon problems/cancer in general. Good luck w/ your surgery. Your strength and positive outlook will bring you through this.

    Xo

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  48. I hope your surgery goes well Sonja. May God bless you and your family:)You will definitely be in my prayers.

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  49. So sorry to hear your going through this but so happy to hear your staying positive and that you finally went in. Your a beautiful strong person that will get through this and it sounds like you have an amazing support system that will really help you out too. I wish the best for you and you will be in my prayers.

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  50. I can't believe it, you are so young!!! I wish you the best of luck Sonja, I hope your surgery goes well and you get rid all the nasty cancer FAST!!! Sending positive vibes your way <3

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  51. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong!!!!

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  52. Oh Sonja, this makes me so sad! Having had to go through cancer with my own mom, at a very young age, I know how difficult that can be. You have the most amazing attitude, and that will get you far! It also helps to have an amazing support system. I hope everything went well with your surgery, and your on the road to recovery! We are all here for you!!

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  53. I totally understand, I was diagnosed with Stage IIb Breast Cancer in 2010 and it hit me out of left field, there was no history of it in my family either. Lots of healing energy your way!

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  54. I've known you since MakeupGeek (back in 2010 I believe) and I am rather in shock. I hope you have an easy time through treatment! Hopefully your surgery went well. You have an amazing spirit about this, so I have no doubt that you'll be okay! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

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  55. Sonja, you don't know me but I'm Mo's (Melissa Mosbey) Mom. I feel As if I know you thru Melissa. I was so sorry to hear about your troubles. Stay strong and let your family and friends help you thru this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.

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  56. Sonja, I've been following you're blog for a while now. When I read what is going on I gasped out loud. I am so very sorry that you are having to go through this. I prayed for you immediately & will continue to do so.

    Cancer is so limited.. It cannot cripple love. It cannot shatter hope. It cannot corrode faith. It cannot eat away peace. It cannot destroy confidence. It cannot kill friendship. It cannot shut out memories. It cannot silence courage. It cannot reduce eternal life. It cannot quench the Spirit. ~~~~Author unknown

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  57. Sonja, I will always remember how sweet you were to me on MUG's forums. If there is ANYTHING you need, please do not hesitate to reach out to your readers. There are a few of us who would always be willing to help out in any way possible. Your strength will bring you through this. Stay positive dollface!

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  58. Sonja, you're amazing and we just love your positive spirit. We're thinking about you and your family, and sending a lot of hope and positive vibes. We're absolutely positive that you'll get through this.
    Stay strong!
    Lots of love from Azure & Phlox

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  59. I am so sorry to hear of your illness. You are an amazing, strong woman and you are totally right that you will beat this! You will be in my thoughts and I wish you the best of luck in your treatment. - Bookbillie from Makeup Geek forum

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  60. I admire your optimism so ardently - you're in my prayers. <3

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  61. Been thinking about you. may God grant you peace, healing and comfort!

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  62. Your amazing attitude will carry you far in your healing process. I am so sorry you are dealing with this. I offer my prayers and support.

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  63. Our prayers are with you!!!!!!!

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  64. Just wanted you to know that my husband and I placed you on our prayer list at church! You are so beautiful and have been such an inspiration to me with make up and I'm very thankful for that! I pray that God grants you complete healing and also gives you and your family strength, peace and comfort through this trying time. GOD Bless!!!

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  65. You will absolutely make it through!

    Maybe a pixie cut like Michelle Williams would be cute :)

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  66. I hope that everything goes well for you, cancer is horrible and you have my support along with so many people in the beauty community!

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    1. I'm praying for you too Sonya. I'm a breast cancer survivor and know it can be frightening but put your trust and faith in God and lean on those who love you too and you will come through it all with great Victory!

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  67. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. (I guess this is why I stumbled upon your blog today)

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  68. Dear Sonja, I've only been reading you for a week or so but I couldn't help my feelings as I read your last post! Please stay positive and strong, the mind plays such an important part! I hope your surgery went well. Wishing you the best and sending you positive thoughts and love from the UK.
    Cy

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  69. OMG Sonja how did I miss this post? Just the other day I was thinking how I haven't seen you posting lately, and when the post from today popped into my inbox and I read your update I began looking at old posts to see what I missed. You and your family will be in my thoughts. <3

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  70. I will be praying for you Sonja, you are a woman with faith and I'm so inspired by you saying you're glad it happened to you, and not someone else. You are strong and I pray for your recovery and complete healing. I hope one day you can share with us any symptoms/signs because sometimes we don't really know them. And sometimes going through something like this could help you share information on this and can help someone be diagnosed sooner. God Bless you.

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  71. I'm prayin for you everyday. I wish you a lot of strengh to get through this. You are so amazing girl, that i really wish to live next to you:) Please never stop believe that ou win this battle. Thombs up and God Bless You

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  72. You are truly an inspiration! I admire you for staying so positive through this. I will be thinking of you!!.....I think you could totally rock a pixie cut! =)

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  73. STAY STRONG! I will say a prayer for you tonight :)

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  74. All our thoughts are with you. Take care!

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  75. My thoughts and prayers are with you Sonja, keep up the positive attitude and stay strong. You are an inspiration to us all <3

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  76. Oh Sonya, you are a beautiful, inspiring, amazing and most of all, STRONG woman! I know you have the strength to fight this and beat it. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers..not only do they need you, we need you too! Love,
    Deb in MIchigan

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  77. You and your family will be in my prayers... stay strong, beautiful.

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  78. Although I see you posted this article about a moth ago, I only got to read it now because I discovered your blog last week sometime. You are such a strong woman and certainly an inspiration to us all! Not only do you have your family as an amazing support system, but you have all of your followers who are thinking of you. Not only are you a beautiful woman on the outside, but your courage and strength make you a beautiful woman on the inside. Stay strong and be positive...AND KICK THAT CANCER IN THE ASS!!!!!

    You're in my thoughts and prayers!

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  79. I'll have you in my thoughts!!! You're awesome!

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  80. Stay strong, that's the number one thing:)

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  81. You've inspired me to get checked out too. Thank you for your courage.

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