Blue looks for Colon Cancer awareness (please read!!)!

This is a post I didn't think I'd ever be writing.  I did a couple of looks this past week for Colon Cancer awareness.  I knew the color for Breast Cancer awareness was pink but I hadn't been sure about the color for Colon Cancer and was happy to find out it was blue and not the brown that my goofy husband said haha.  So here are the looks I did!

What I used:

TFSI

NYX JEP "Milk"

MAC Mineralized shadow "Sea & Sky" (Sky on lid)

88 palette for black and navy blue

theBalm "Promiscuous Pearl" shadow as highlight

L'oreal Lineur Intense Carbon Black Liquid Liner

L'oreal Voluminous Carbon Black mascara

What I used:

Lime Crime Eyeshadow Helper

Glamour Doll Eye's "Mingles" shadow applied wet on lid and then blended up dry

MAC "Blanc Type" shadow

Glamour Doll Eye's "Ancestry" as highlight

MAC Blacktrack fluidline

L'oreal Voluminous Carbon Black mascara (sorry about the clumpy lashes!!)

So why choose to do a look for colon cancer?  Well this answer is very personal but I want you guys to know what's going on.  Wednesday I went to the doctor because I'd been having stomach issues.  I thought it was something not super serious, maybe Crohn's disease or Ulcerative Colitis.  I was so nervous to go but when I woke up from my colonoscopy (which I had been dreading and never EVER intended to tell anyone about) my doctor came in with my husband and said, "I don't have good news for you.  It looks like cancer."

Um... what???  I'm 26 years old, I'm healthy, strong, I have no family history of cancer, I don't even like red meat.  I have zero factors that they say might put you at a higher risk for colon cancer.  So on Friday I met with a surgeon who told me the biopsy came back and that I do have stage 4 colon cancer, which has spread to my liver.  The plan is for me to go into surgery tomorrow to remove the mass from my colon and implant a port so I can start chemotherapy.  

So in a week my life has flipped a little bit.  I'm definitely staying positive and, though I know it's so unusual for someone who's so young to get colon cancer, I also know that my age is going to help me get through this easier.  And I have the best, most amazing support system.  My husband is incredible and my parents have come down from New York to stay with me for a little bit, with other family and friends wanting to come see me and help me out, but not wanting to overwhelm me.  I have amazing people in my life who have been calling me and texting me and emailing me to see what's going on and telling me that they're praying for me and thinking of me.

I don't want people feeling bad for me.  This sucks and there's no getting around that.  But I'm glad that it's happening to me and not to someone else, I know I'm strong enough to make it through everything.

I learned an important lesson through what's happened so far.  I knew something was wrong in my body (granted, I didn't think it was this) but I didn't listen.  I let this go for about a year before I was brave enough to tell someone that something was wrong.  I was too embarrassed to tell people.  So please please please, if you know that something isn't right, go to the doctor.  Even if you have none of the factors for having a serious illness, that doesn't mean you don't have it.  I learned that the hard way.

Tomorrow is my surgery (which I'm am not allowed to wear makeup for!!) so I'm going to be MIA for a little bit but I'll be back!  And I have every intention on continuing my blogging, even through chemo.  I have decided that one I talk with the oncologist, that if there's a good chance I'll lose my hair, that I'm going to cut it off and donate what I can.  I can't see the sense in letting perfectly good hair wash down the drain, especially when someone else could use it.  So any ideas for short pixie haircuts are more then welcomed!!  

Just if you all could keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers, I know more prayers can only help! Thank you all for your support, it means so so so much to me!!